Happy new year!

Today shall mark the beginning of the new year, of my life and the beginning of a brand new day for me. Call me crazy but i just feel that sometimes it is a blessing in disguise to fall sick once in a while. cos once you get better, everything changes. Ur view towards life, urself n everything. And you start to really appreciate good health.

Ok la maybe i’m just slow and dumb to only realise that now, but better late than never right….. hahaha.

I admit to the long torment of being sick, the feeling of hopelessness, the depressed thoughts that you’re never gonna get better and u dread living on another day like this. It is all, but permanent, and just another day of the blues.

And once it is over, there is this renewed breath of life that comes back into me again, literally like i’ve only just realised that i am able-bodied and can do all sorts of things, and get back on the express bus. or train. 

I mean when u remember what u actually went through when you’re sick,when you’re healthy; u just feel like working real hard cos you’re healthy and ur just grateful u ain’t sick no more… arg i confused me. But of cos this doesn’t work for long if you have poor memory… like me. hahaha..

Trust me, it was depressing to be down and out on the first day of 2008. but hey, i survived. and really post sick period now and i’m feeling SO alive. I’ve learnt that without health, there really isn’t anything else.

PS I think u all know how very the LOH SOH i am right. once i start, i don’t think i can stop. Just so if you happen to fall asleep halfway and start drooling all ova ur brand new laptop, i’m sorry man.. ok i digressed.

And lest to say i’m starting to appreciate and feel so blessed to have a pair of hands, and legs, some lungs… heart, liver, some internal organs, cells n all of that…. to feel light headed cos my head is no longer clouded, skies are blue again..

to be able to jump up and touch my ceiling, to not walk around the house like a dead zombie n berate others for talking too much, when i can’t make out much of what they r saying but to be prancing around again…

to think straight and talk properly, n truly laugh because it’s funny and not that sickly urrhhz laugh for the sake of it, to retaliate at ppl’s bad jokes (ops) and *wash all the dirty dishes, All! EVERYTHING… I likee…

I actually find that last one very enjoyable…. haha… what. cannot isit? ok i merely just wanted to mark this day as a new n happy beginning of everything. whos to know why i ended up blabbing so much. alright… I’ll spare u.

i pray that God’s love, peace and guidiance be with each and everyone of u for the year 2008.

Until next time, happy new year!