Feeling the in-between

Sometimes when i find i have so much energy in my body and have no where else to channel it out, i find myself here again, an outlet to pour out my feelings, pen down my thoughts. Sure there are postive and negative energy but in my case, I really can’t tell for sure what type of energy i’m channelling out. Maybe for right now it’s just anxiety. Yes plagued by plain ol’ anxiety. I think at this junction of my life, having to think about so many things, and start to take charge for so many things, it should be quite normal. Or at least i hope so it is. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy… can’t life be peaceful all the time……
Heal the world.. Make it a better place…MJ’s concert rocked last night!

Treasures in life

To realize
The value of a sister,
Ask someone
Who doesn’t have one.
To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.
To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident…
To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics
Time waits for no one.
To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

It’s that time of the year again.  Really no point living
in the past. Forgive and forget bahz. 

Happy chinese new year…

A new beginning

2008 went by in a blink of an eye and now a new year has come.

How i wish i can push time back to 3 years back and live life again.

Time is getting by faster and faster each day now.

Ah but well, a brand new year, a brand new start to everything eh.

so i guess i should set some new years resolutions.

Let’s see what i can come out with.

2009 new years resolutions
#1) Hone my talent
#2) Get driving license
#3) Be a better daughter/sister/person in general
#4) Visit one other country(besides Malaysia n bkk) and get to know about their culture
#5) Eat more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#6) Complete set up of The Basil Inn
#7) Visit the dentist (cannot escape this!)
#8 ) Try the bungee swing at clark quay8)
#9) Go for a chocolate buffet…….
#10) Last but not least, find some love (kakaaka…)

Ok i’m just kidding. Recently, met up with the baos again.

Although it was less than 2 hours, of eating satay, i really had fun.

A moment of bliss regardless of.

noi..i still can’t believe another frog landed on your leg! what are the odds lahz.

Hope to see them again soon. OI OI OI JIAYOU!!!

Home sweet home

Really tired now. Still, I succumbed to the temptation of taking just a couple more photos before i head off for the bathroom ritual. ohh faith!!kaka..

  

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. Love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don’t. Believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy. They just said it would be worth it.

Sudden change

What doesn’t break you, makes you stronger. What doesn’t break you, makes you stronger. What doesn’t break you, makes you stronger.

It’s all in our mentality, to change the way we want to carry on living,  the way we think, the things we cherish in life.

Change is good.

To continue staying in this warped mentality of ours is useless, just wishful thinking on our part.

Many people going through heart aches, broken relationships, broken marriages, unrequited love etc

To them i say,

Hang in there.

Cos all will be fine.

Time heals all pain. 

When new memories enter our brain, old memories tend to get kicked out.

And we don’t exactly have a 10G memory.

1 yr to forget? 2 yrs? 200yrs?

bahhh..

Just believe..

Jiayou.. Aza aza fighting!

Age-ing

Really wanna thank God for the awesome service today.

Feeling real touched and rejuvenated…

I learnt something very interesting and scientific from the pastor. Something that concerns staying youthful:)

ok hold on a min, i’m getting there.

Note to self first, muz always put ALL of my trust in the lord even in the midst of a problem. Believe that God would solve our problems and not wait until u solve the problem then think that u deserve rest.

But rest first and wait on God, and he will make ur enemies(our problems) ur footstool. 

Also learnt that speaking in tongues when we face a situation, we can immediately feel the rest of God’s presence. And all our big problems would seem like a speck of dust.

I think sometimes it’s hard to entrust my problems totally to God especially when the problem is smack right in my face.

I tend to wanna handle it myself and not trust God enough to handle it for me. But practise makes perfect eh?

Alright, getting to the really interesting part.

Well, did you know?

Our DNA has a strip of plastic that protects it and holds it together. And when that strip of plastic breaks down and wears off, it will cause us to age and that will inevitably make us look older. And look here, the thing that wears down this strip of plastic is actually STRESS.

Stress is the thing that makes us age!!!! Proven scientifically by the doctors.

Arggg!! STRESS!!

How can?!!!

I thought maybe it was some other thing, er i don’t knw really, say the SUN??!!!

TSK.

So it’s actually u stress….

So i suppose now no point stressing over every small little thing. (for starters, the sun gal)

Must always stay calm and cool. and be rested. in God’s presence.

Always always always!

Missing my dear friends and loved ones right now……. missing everybody…… :/

Medicine

I reckon i should keep a record of the list of medicine that heals me the fastest.

Believe you me, doctors don’t know for sure whats the best prescribtion for u and they have to keep trying different drugs on you until they get the right one.

Each body is different, so the doctor can’t know for sure what type of drugs will not work on your body.

Considering there are like a gazillion type of drugs in this world. 

And since each time i am sick it’s always the same ol’ symptoms.

So instead of being a guinea pig and waiting like forever for the right drug to come along my way, i’m gonna remember them myself from now onwards.

Next time i will just tell the doc, eh plz give me this, this and this.. lol!

Last but not least, wishing everyone a happy chinese new year and an early happy valentine’s day.

I bid you now an early good night. Rest well. muackz.

My medicine list:

cantbelieveiamdoingthis

Fever: paracetamol 500g (Beacons)

Blocked Nose: triprolidine HCI 2.5mg, pseudoephedrine HCI 60mg (Fedac tablet)

Antibiotics: amoxycillin Trihydrate B.P. 500mg-AMYN 500 (Kopran)

Sore Throat: cofsils lozenges- orange flavour

Happy new year!

Today shall mark the beginning of the new year, of my life and the beginning of a brand new day for me. Call me crazy but i just feel that sometimes it is a blessing in disguise to fall sick once in a while. cos once you get better, everything changes. Ur view towards life, urself n everything. And you start to really appreciate good health.

Ok la maybe i’m just slow and dumb to only realise that now, but better late than never right….. hahaha.

I admit to the long torment of being sick, the feeling of hopelessness, the depressed thoughts that you’re never gonna get better and u dread living on another day like this. It is all, but permanent, and just another day of the blues.

And once it is over, there is this renewed breath of life that comes back into me again, literally like i’ve only just realised that i am able-bodied and can do all sorts of things, and get back on the express bus. or train. 

I mean when u remember what u actually went through when you’re sick,when you’re healthy; u just feel like working real hard cos you’re healthy and ur just grateful u ain’t sick no more… arg i confused me. But of cos this doesn’t work for long if you have poor memory… like me. hahaha..

Trust me, it was depressing to be down and out on the first day of 2008. but hey, i survived. and really post sick period now and i’m feeling SO alive. I’ve learnt that without health, there really isn’t anything else.

PS I think u all know how very the LOH SOH i am right. once i start, i don’t think i can stop. Just so if you happen to fall asleep halfway and start drooling all ova ur brand new laptop, i’m sorry man.. ok i digressed.

And lest to say i’m starting to appreciate and feel so blessed to have a pair of hands, and legs, some lungs… heart, liver, some internal organs, cells n all of that…. to feel light headed cos my head is no longer clouded, skies are blue again..

to be able to jump up and touch my ceiling, to not walk around the house like a dead zombie n berate others for talking too much, when i can’t make out much of what they r saying but to be prancing around again…

to think straight and talk properly, n truly laugh because it’s funny and not that sickly urrhhz laugh for the sake of it, to retaliate at ppl’s bad jokes (ops) and *wash all the dirty dishes, All! EVERYTHING… I likee…

I actually find that last one very enjoyable…. haha… what. cannot isit? ok i merely just wanted to mark this day as a new n happy beginning of everything. whos to know why i ended up blabbing so much. alright… I’ll spare u.

i pray that God’s love, peace and guidiance be with each and everyone of u for the year 2008.

Until next time, happy new year!

Our loyal companions

Grabbed this video from dear yanjing.

It’s about Ella’s dog who just passed away and she made this song in dedication to him- qiang qiang.

Really tried to hold back my tears, but too hard to control.

As I watch the mv, it reminds me of boy boy and how much i dread to lose him.

I know i will miss him so much should he decide to go to heaven. =*

    Love u so much charlie boy!   

Treasure your pets. To you he maybe just a pet, but to him, you’re his everything.