Oh mannn…
Don’t know what happened to me that day.
Played the role of the nurse.
Was quite nervous.
My body like an entire entity on its own.
Try to pull myself together and focus my mind 100%.
hope that the scene turns out ok.
你紧张什么啦…
This is Rui en’s new show slated to be out sometime in Jan010, ch8.
Look out for it!

Went out with my family to have dinner at the new ion shopping mall. My sister heard that the swensons there have an all desserts buffet so we decided to go check it out and give ourselves a little treat.

There’s also a guy who does the waffle on the spot for you. My sister is the most excited of all because she loves eating sweet things, be it day or night, she can even eat it all day long.

Did you know in Thailand, the swensons there only serve ice cream, so my thai friends who come to Singapore are really shocked that our swensons here serve food and main courses as well. Because theirs serve purely ice creams.

We quite enjoyed ourselves. The cakes weren’t that nice, except for the cheese cake. They served carrot cake and chocolate cake as well plus some others but they were all pretty dry. My taste buds are easy to satisfy, but if it couldn’t get through me then i doubt it will go pass my sister whose palate matches that of Gordon Ramsey. At the end of it, the sister said she couldn’t look at any sweet thing ever again. Poor girl! Thats why i say, high expectations=major disappointment.

Other than that, the many selections of gelato ice cream were pretty awesome. Anyone who enjoys free flow of  ice cream will surely enjoy this. Variety is the spice of life and we were definately spoilt for choices.

When we left the place, we swore off sweet things for the rest of our lives.

Last but not least, Glory to the King!!

*Serene whips out her camera*

before make up

All done! CHU FA!!

we were bored and waiting

karen jie jie

both of them goofing around

hey!!!

Last week we had a shoot that was set in the 1960s and 1970s. When i returned back the clothes, i really couldn’t bear to leave everything. simply fell in love with the setting.Going to miss all the fun n laughter we had during the shoot.

神经失常, 但不能露在面孔.

Are u all vietnamese girls… Some ppl at the shops asked. -_- U say leh?

非常荣幸能够跟导演拍照.

I think 当我们同在一起 will be starting on 30/11 ch8, 9pm. Not really sure what the story is all about but am so looking forward to watching this show..真的很期待看orh.

Before i plunge headlong into some of the darkest days of my life, i would first like to quote something one of my wise friend once said to me, Yesterday is History, Tomorro is a Mystery, Today is a Gift. Thats why it is called Present.

The past 6 months was almost hell for my life. First of all, eczema the condition i didn’t know i have only until recently is quite commonly known to others as a case of sensitive skin, that when affected by heat, environment humidity, stress or food allergy etc will then become unbeareably itchy, lastly resulting in redness and deep ugly lesions on the skin.

There are 2 ways to treat eczema, you can choose to go to a western doctor, either that or the slow way, through chinese medicine. In my case, ignorance is not bliss, because faced with this dilemma, i really didn’t now which is the best way to go about it. So first i went to a normal GP, who gave me some pills and some expensive topical cream to apply. Mind you this was highly recommended by word of mouth and he also has a cert in dermatology. But nothing really did work for me. i was at a loss and suffering a whole lot cos the itching got quite bad. So my mom went to ask around from her work place and this bugger, i mean…this very kind soul who recommended to her a very good chinese skin doctor in town, who makes his medicine from herbs, who was my very second best chance at healing and also the very person who prolonged my suffering for yet another gruelling 5 months. 

One step into his office, and below his brand name HEROSE is a very bold statement, THE POWER TO HEAL. My hope rocketed sky high. He said TCM(chinese medicine) is the safest and surest way to cure eczema but 2 months into taking his medicine, more and more lesions started coming out.He said yes it’s supposed to be like that, because all the toxins is expelling out of your body so more of it is supposed to be coming out.

WHAT IS THIS??
2 months down the road, i am finding trouble trying to cover up my skin problem. Another 2 months down the road, i just gave up covering it, come what may with the stares on the streets. It was the past 3 weeks that took the toll out of me. I got a really bad infection because the itching got so bad, and i’ve probably clawed way too deep into my skin that it started spreading more rapidly to other parts of my body. Soemtimes just thinking back upon the sleepless nights of clawing at my already sore and bruised skin,(don’t know how many layers i already infiltrated) i unknowingly get tears forming at backs of my eyes. Because deep down i knew the more i scratched at it, the more the bacteria will spread on, and the harder it will be for me to cure, but the itch is just so intense, it goes straight to your brain and you are jsut blind to everything else. It basically takes all of my will power to just stop one scratch.

6 months into his medicine and still nothing got better, in fact everything only became worst, i was seriously done with it. Went to a nearby GP to get antibiotics for the infection last week and the doctor was seriously stunned by my condition and how it could have gotten to such a bad state. She referred me to A&E at the town hospital, where a proper skin specialist there will attend to my condition the next morning before the infection goes into my blood. 

Seriously why did i suffer so much more? So many nights i really just wanted to give up on everything. Corticosteriods and antibiotics could’ve cured me in 3 days but i had to choose the long way around. I’ve also checked on the internet, short term usuage of corticosteriods is not harmful to the body at all. So right now i’m on the proper path to healing and i’m a happy girl. My last hope is for my battered skin to quickly recover. And soon this will be all forgotten and never shall be brought about again.

If u ask me from all my experience with eczema, GO to a proper skin dermatologist in a hospital and use the English method i repeat an english doctor to solve this because TRUST ME, the long way isn’t going to do you any good at all.

Life is short, just curb it don’t prolong it PLS.

Sometimes when i find i have so much energy in my body and have no where else to channel it out, i find myself here again, an outlet to pour out my feelings, pen down my thoughts. Sure there are postive and negative energy but in my case, I really can’t tell for sure what type of energy i’m channelling out. Maybe for right now it’s just anxiety. Yes plagued by plain ol’ anxiety. I think at this junction of my life, having to think about so many things, and start to take charge for so many things, it should be quite normal. Or at least i hope so it is. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy… can’t life be peaceful all the time……
Heal the world.. Make it a better place…MJ’s concert rocked last night!

These two boys are so adorable.
Can’t stop watching it.His brother bit his finger and he was kind of enjoying it at first.
LOL..

I had wanted to write about my great aunt 62, who passed away on thursday, to remember her in passing and to mark it as a day that is a great lost to this world, but i realised i just have not come to terms with it. Everything was still fine the day after u know, was in control of everything;  i started to adopt the attitude that life still goes on and all. I even amazed myself at how well i was taking it. The realisation just refuse to hit me, cos it really felt like she was going to be around and that i would still get to experience her loud and bubbly nature during our CNY gatherings. So i  really don’t know why i bawled my eyes out when i saw her body in the coffin. It seems like she was just sleeping there, so soundly that i had the urge to yell out, HEY MENG… wake up!stop sleeping already.. We had nick names for each other.We called each other ah meng. It was some joke that we cooked up during one of our oh so formal gatherings. It was only between the two of us and we had a great laugh over it. I seriously never get bored when she’s around. The silent stranger; and also the life and soul of every party. It just felt like she could sit up at any moment and say, ‘Eh got steamboat ah tonight?’ Then she would spent the whole day looking forward to it. Why do good people die young? No matter how much we complain, we still have to accept it. Am i ecaping reality?  yea, maybe. but so what if i am? Everybody takes time to heal, just that some might take longer. She really was a great person.  And i just know it will never, never be the same without her.

Arrived at changi beach at 6pm in noi’s car. Couldn’t find parking space in carpark 1, the meeting place. Wanted to park at the single white line, not for parking zone but we decided against it. So noi drives off to the next and the next… and the next carpark. At the end we also don’t have any parking coupon so still have to take the risk. haha!

Then we got down with our things and went to put our bags and prepare her prezzie. Noi write long poem so i also have to write a poem. what was it girl? With a shawl that keeps u warm, like our arms that wrap around and embrace our friendship forever.. Can’t remember.. xD Well u see we got her a shawl. so yea.. u get the picture. the whole time after that we just got down to help put together the big happy birthday banner while waiting for the birthday girl to arrive.

The panicking moment was when the orgnizer suddenly said okayyy she’s here she’s here….. all of u get ready! sheesh not ready at all lahz. Spray cans, party poppers, glow in dark sunglasses. ALL ON NOW! so everyone just grabbed everything they could and blindly went to hide behind this big signboard(thats shows the map of changi beach).

The thing is nadia is coming from the direction that we were facing our backs to, and we didn’t know that. -_- and we still happily crouch behind our corner  

luckily noi spotted in time,

Noi: eh i saw her.. she’s there.. she’s there…*Her eyes looking behind me*
Me: where… where…
Noi: *not hearing me at all* ehh she’s there…. she’s thereee…..
Me: *panicking n directionless*WHERE??? WHEREEEEEEEE!!!
Noi: Shift faster shift!!
Me: *huh…. WHERE IS SHE???!!!!*

So upon noi’s alert, we hurridley moved ourselves and went to crouch at the OTHER SIDE of the signboard instead. sheesh. Until this moment i still haven’t caught sight of the girl yet so i was just following blindly. Joe was leading her to us, she was a bit suspicious already but still not completely affirmed yet. The ancipation was killing and i needed to know where exactly is she now so i know when to come out with the spray weapons. And so i peeked…. and SHOOT i think she saw me!  I faster duck back up again. But at that same time they all started coming out and attacking her with the sprays cans and the party poppers and all. Think she really was quite shocked all of us was there..hahahah. Well i hope that she enjoyed herself on that day=)

*It’s a priviledge to grow old.*  Because many die young.  Denied of that priviledge  and don’t live on to experience more wonders of life. I guess we should count our blessings. Can’t wait for the new thing with me and my sister to be up!  Finally something worth looking forward to again.

Last but not least, to the king of Pop,michael Jackson. You will live on in our hearts forever. May God bless his children…

This is the first time noi decided to organise her own chalet. And organise she did. Turned out that quite a little of our folks came, but it’s ok cos we stilll had fun. Tried her homecooked beehoon for the first time and the satays she penkan-ed.  Luckily no food posioning that night X) After that we went upstairs to chill out. Did something silly as usual. Threw a fire cracker out of the balcony, into the unknown, admist fellow chalet goers who were busy enjoying their bbq food, and who supposedly should get a shock of it but who totally did not. Instead only we got a kick out of it, laughing ourselves silly. In a world only we exist….I miss u so much baos! When is our next meeting? Zoo again, shall we??